| There is something wrong with me. I don't know if it is just stupidity or just that I'm obsessed. I couldn't let go of something so simple yet so complicated. I've been put through so much pain and yet all I want is to keep you to myself. Each passing day that I don't have you cause me much much more pain. This sucks cause I can't move on and whenever my mind is blank or occupied, I only think of you. I've lost interest in looking at other people. Maybe is just me or I am really bugging out. I don't know what to do anymore and for some apparent reason I don't want to let go and fight on. But what is the point if it doesn't work that way? Why do I still do it? I don't get it and why do I keep doing it and why can't I stay away? This is confusing to me and it pains me too. It pains me on other levels and on other things you do. But I don't understand why and just why that I can't manage to stay away. Like most people tell me, and I agree, I am pathetic to no end. -sighs- What am I doing and thinking? Wish I can tell myself... Fuck me and my life... |
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| So yeah.... Alot has happend in the past few days. I've pretty much had the worse day yesterday and it haven't gotten any better at all. Well I'm bored out of my mind now. Mmmm... Alot has happend and I was gonna type everything up but now I lost my mood to do anything again..... Ehhhh fuck it... |
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| You know what I just realized? Who are the poeple that really cared and who didn't give a shit. You know what else? I don't care no more. Forget you people. |
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| Wow what a week. New Years Eve, we went out to drink at Colors. That was not as pleasant as I thought it would be. We just sat there and played dice. Yeah... Booooring. After that I had the munchies so me, Serena, King, Jamie, and Peter went to go look for a place to eat. But apparently everywhere was closed. Even a diner that said OPEN 24 Hours. LOL. So we had nowhere to eat so we went to 100Fun to see who was there. Then they all went back to Brian's for an after party. I went home and didn't sleep at all. Then 6AM in the morning Serena calls me to go out and chill. So went out and went to chill. Ehhhh yeah.... Brian had Andrews car so we were just driving around. And then..... Damn what a ride..... Anyway then we went to go get some viet bao. Went back to Brian's to eat then everyone assed out. Yeah I was sleeping in Scott's room with Serena and like people kept coming in and out. I was barely asleep. Then went home and yeah.... Next day was I forgot. I think I either stayed home or went to Brian's to chill again. Yeah I went to Brian's to chill. Was gonna shoot pool but then when we left it was only me and Serena. So we went out and it was cold and it was only us 2 so we decided to go eat instead with Ronald and Angie. So we went to eat then chilled a bit at the diner then went back to Brian's cause Serena, Angie, and Diana had to go back home. So yeah after they left I went to play Demon Souls the game I got Brian and yeah.. Then Serena got left alone for taking bus home alone. So she called me and we talked. And yeah..... |
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| Ehhh broke my 8 months policy. W/e. We all had fun. Well uhmmm week was gay cause I had work on Christmas Eve. But after work everything was FUN. Uhmmm went to Korean BBQ. Ate mad food and chilled with people. That was fun. Then coming back I gave people their presents and apparently I got whatever they wanted for Christmas cause they all got mad happy. Uhmmmm.......... THen next day woke up at 2PM and went Ice Skating but it started to rain so me and Serena went back to the car instead while Kevin, Monica and Christine went ice skating. Then went back to Brian's and on the way back we hit traffic. Then we went drinking and it was all fun till certain people got maaaaaad drunk. -.- Well basically the highlight of this week. Hehe~ |
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